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Name: Megan
Location: Minnesota, United States
Gender: Female
Interests: Backpacking, the outdoors, the North country, stargazing, bonfires, soft blankets, jeans and hoodies, holding hands, road trips, staying up all night and sleeping in, laying out in the early summer sun, seeing fish and creatures under the water, animals fascinate me, I love climbing trees, I enjoy those moments when I feel like a child again, artistic tattoos, painting and sketching, music that feeds the soul, crying in the shower, laughing 'till I ache, cuddles on a rainy day, beauty on the inside and the outside.
Expertise: I love figuring random stuff out, logic puzzles, formulas, languages. I have had 4.0 GPA my whole life, not because I'm smart, but because I know where to get the information and find the patterns. This actually dissapoints me.
Occupation: Dispatcher
Industry: Espresso Services
Message: message me
AIM:  anamika027
MSN: emjae@q.com
Yahoo:  anamika272
Member Since:
3/8/2005
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| I've been thinking for the past few months about some of the complicated messes that occur as we walk through life. I can't even think of a way to start this that will tie it all together, but maybe the flow of these words will keep time with my heart and you can get the gist of what I'm saying. I have watched my parents grow apart over the years, and it breaks my heart. Stubborness and insecurites have built up over time, and I ask myself how it ever got this bad. It scares me, I don't ever want to be stuck in a relationship like that. At least I want to be trying. They will never divorce, but sometimes the silence and the absence of cries is worse and more painful then heated argument. What does it take to open up a heart to another? And then how can hearts close so tightly? There are unspoken needs and unfulfilled dreams that weigh heavily on the hearts of everyone. Would becoming numb taste better? So, then, as a Christiain I think, "God, you fill up those missing pieces right?" And this is what i need to know: In marriage, in relationships with a significant other, when you are feeling unfulfilled, when there are chunks of you that the other person isn't understanding, when there is obvious lack (known or unknown by the other person) when does God fill up those holes? I know he does. He says he does. Hollywood makes it seem that a soulmate fills all of you. That is so far from the truth. That is such an unfair expectation! It hurts everyone involved. I know. I live it. I see it. I feel it. I believe in hearts that can't love except by the grace of God. I believe in stubborn love with a tenacious grip. I believe in healing love. I believe in a love that forgives. I believe in a love that has room for mistakes and helps me to stand. I believe anyone can be loved. I don't beleive in soulmates. I believe in messy love. | | |
| I think that I'm going to quit my job. I want to take a giant leap of faith and a step toward the unknown. Should I? | | |
| “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” Nelson Mandela
I find this my life ambition - to inspire. That's what I love the most. I can use my brains, my love, my ideas to impact those around me! It's amazing and I believe its my calling to cause dreams in others to come to life, to birth within them a sense of longing, to drive them toward their goals, and cause their dreams to soar on the wings of opportunity. And put God into the picture, and those dreams will impact eternity! | | |
| The heart within my chest is pulled by invisible string. A lifeline to an unseen source of being. I try to run and talk myself out of a love, but it’s never let go of. Never left behind. Always tied together. My choice was made long ago. I try to run, cry, and feel hopeless. But deep down I know that there is a reason behind the madness that everything will be seen in its right timing. | | |
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